Of milk without the cookies…

I walk into the special care unit at the hospital, proud because I was able to pump enough to fill half of 3ย 4oz bottles with the golden liquid.
In a world were mothers are to be happy and everything else but stressed so the land of milk opens the gates of liquid gold to a full flow, I feel like I wasโ€ฆ not invited ?

As I was sayingโ€ฆ

I walked in proud of my milk supply, almost showing it to the whole world to see, when I stumbled upon a mother, either that or she came from old MacDonaldโ€™s farm, carrying a sack full of the same bottles I was carrying in my ziplock bag. Only she must have had at least 20 or more in there all full! For just ONE child! (Or maybe she was the Santa of NSCU?)
I have two babies! Here I was proud of 3 bottles hardly filled to the half! When the heck will I be invited to the V.I.P of Milk let down?

Gosh that made my nipples become inverted! Sorry I have to be so specific but that burned!

— 1 week ago with 2 notes
iminarun asked: Hiii! Just wanted to send some positive vibes, and wish you a smooth delivery & speedy recovery (when it's time). So glad your girls are liking it inside your belly so they can get a little bigger & a little stronger before making their arrival! <333


Answer:

Hi there!! Can’t believe I just now read your message!๐Ÿ˜ฑ I’ll tell ya, it’s been crazy busy and overwhelming… Girls got here a week ago (August 28th) after a weekly appointment with obgyn. She sent me straight to the hospital and before I knew it the girls were born! It was a c-section as one was transverse and my dear husband couldn’t be there and that broke our hearts :( fortunately I wasn’t alone and my mother got to be there with me. I’ll have to write about that day because it was really crazy! My girls are still at special care and hopefully they will soon come home and we can start being a family of 5!!๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ how are you doing?? Ready for the Fall?

— 1 week ago with 4 notes

All I need now is babies!!๐Ÿ˜ญ
๐Ÿ˜…

— 3 weeks ago with 7 notes
fromlazytolively my shirt says:

"I went to bed with a dream and I woke up with this cool shirt" beats me! 
Lol! My mom bought it at Zara in Mexico. Most of my shirts don&#8217;t fit anymore! She brought a couple of beach shirts ๐Ÿ˜‚

Although I think this one might be a shirt to sleep in??? 

Anyway, just walking a bit to get some circulation&#8230;

fromlazytolively my shirt says:

"I went to bed with a dream and I woke up with this cool shirt" beats me!
Lol! My mom bought it at Zara in Mexico. Most of my shirts don’t fit anymore! She brought a couple of beach shirts ๐Ÿ˜‚

Although I think this one might be a shirt to sleep in???

Anyway, just walking a bit to get some circulation…

— 3 weeks ago with 7 notes
sararuns &amp; iminarun

Thank you SO much for your prayers girls!
This is all I want for them, to be healthy! 
I have a c-section scheduled for Sept 12 but not sure I&#8217;ll make it! 
 I&#8217;m hoping for a fast recovery so I can enjoy my little ones!!

Sending much love!!๐Ÿ˜˜โค๏ธ

sararuns & iminarun

Thank you SO much for your prayers girls!
This is all I want for them, to be healthy!
I have a c-section scheduled for Sept 12 but not sure I’ll make it!
I’m hoping for a fast recovery so I can enjoy my little ones!!

Sending much love!!๐Ÿ˜˜โค๏ธ

— 3 weeks ago with 3 notes
35 weeks yes?

Had a doctor&#8217;s appointment this morning and let&#8217;s just say&#8230; Without beating too much around the bush.

I am 4cm dilated and 80% effaced&#8230; What does that mean? Hard to tell with twins! If I walked into the hospital with just one baby they would probably have me in and ready to deliver! She could feel baby A&#8217;s head!
So all in all she said I could go into labor in the next few days&#8230; Or tonight!!!!๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ 

No pain other than the weight of these babies pushing down, my lower back and my feet! My poor, poor, feet!

We shall see&#8230;

Your guess? Experience??

35 weeks yes?

Had a doctor’s appointment this morning and let’s just say… Without beating too much around the bush.

I am 4cm dilated and 80% effaced… What does that mean? Hard to tell with twins! If I walked into the hospital with just one baby they would probably have me in and ready to deliver! She could feel baby A’s head!
So all in all she said I could go into labor in the next few days… Or tonight!!!!๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ

No pain other than the weight of these babies pushing down, my lower back and my feet! My poor, poor, feet!

We shall see…

Your guess? Experience??

— 3 weeks ago with 7 notes
#twin pregnancy  #cervix effaced  #labor 
Week 35, officially 8 months pregnant!!
Yay! It seem like I would never get this far! Yet now that I am this far๐Ÿ˜‘ goodness have mercy! 

My feet keep getting awfully swollen! Tomorrow I have my weekly appointment and hopefully everything is ok. To be honest though, my mom is in town and we&#8217;ve been out and about. Am I too selfish and stupid to think that soon I won&#8217;t be able to go out for some time so I have to take advantage right now before the girls come??
Conundrum&#8230;

I&#8217;ve gotta let you all know one thing, you don&#8217;t really know about this, but I feel a bit scared. I mean yes, I&#8217;m scared and nervousness about giving birth and adding two members to the family. Scared about the first year everyone says will be the hardest&#8230;
But what I&#8217;m mostly scared of is something else. Something I haven&#8217;t shared here about one of the babies. All I can say is that I&#8217;d be devastated. 
Then there&#8217;s my strong belief in God and that everything will be ok. 

So until then, I will not lose hope.
God has already done so much for this pregnancy, I trust that He won&#8217;t stop now&#8230; He will keep doing a lot more for my girls and this family. 

Anyway&#8230; I about started crying there phew!๐Ÿ˜… this has been one trip that I will never forget&#8230; On a roller coaster that is!๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ฎ

Week 35, officially 8 months pregnant!!
Yay! It seem like I would never get this far! Yet now that I am this far๐Ÿ˜‘ goodness have mercy!

My feet keep getting awfully swollen! Tomorrow I have my weekly appointment and hopefully everything is ok. To be honest though, my mom is in town and we’ve been out and about. Am I too selfish and stupid to think that soon I won’t be able to go out for some time so I have to take advantage right now before the girls come??
Conundrum…

I’ve gotta let you all know one thing, you don’t really know about this, but I feel a bit scared. I mean yes, I’m scared and nervousness about giving birth and adding two members to the family. Scared about the first year everyone says will be the hardest…
But what I’m mostly scared of is something else. Something I haven’t shared here about one of the babies. All I can say is that I’d be devastated.
Then there’s my strong belief in God and that everything will be ok.

So until then, I will not lose hope.
God has already done so much for this pregnancy, I trust that He won’t stop now… He will keep doing a lot more for my girls and this family.

Anyway… I about started crying there phew!๐Ÿ˜… this has been one trip that I will never forget… On a roller coaster that is!๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ฎ

— 3 weeks ago with 7 notes

Officially I’m still a month away from having these little ones, but my body is ready! Or rather my mind?

I’m so tired and I seriously have a hard time moving around. My feel get so swollen and I feel like I need to go pee (pardon the expression) all the time! But it is just the weight of the girls๐Ÿ˜‘

We feel like we are ready (as in cribs ready, diapers ready, clothes, car seats, stroller) but I know that when the time comes I’ll be panicking and I know I won’t be ready! At least emotionally and physically.
Two different women approached me asking me if I was carrying twins!!!! Funny one of them knew because she has twin granddaughters and she said I looked like her daughter in law right before having them! Geez!

She said the first year would be hard but once we were past that ONE first year things would finally feel better and be better. Her last words were “hang in there, God bless you”. Makes me wonder just how much work awaits, not that I am totally ignorant about it but.. Maybe it will be 10 times harder??๐Ÿ˜ฑ

Anyways in other news…
Can I pls deliver now??!!!๐Ÿ˜ฒ๐Ÿ˜ฒ

— 4 weeks ago with 6 notes
Today I went with my mom to Dick&#8217;s and I can&#8217;t tell you how I felt!
I wanted to buy leggings and shirts and socks and headbands and shoes!!

I got excited&#8230; For nothing.๐Ÿ˜“ 
That shoe is the new Pegasus and I love running in these because I had a stress fracture on my heel thanks to the Nike Free, I&#8217;ve been an avid Pegasus fan after someone at a running store recommended those. I probably have about 4 pairs of these and if I could, I&#8217;d be buying these new ones!!

Oh well&#8230; Soon perhaps?

Today I went with my mom to Dick’s and I can’t tell you how I felt!
I wanted to buy leggings and shirts and socks and headbands and shoes!!

I got excited… For nothing.๐Ÿ˜“
That shoe is the new Pegasus and I love running in these because I had a stress fracture on my heel thanks to the Nike Free, I’ve been an avid Pegasus fan after someone at a running store recommended those. I probably have about 4 pairs of these and if I could, I’d be buying these new ones!!

Oh well… Soon perhaps?

— 4 weeks ago with 4 notes